Part of me sits indoors, in a room made suddenly rich with pink roses. They are the most glorious flowers I have ever seen, the perfect colour, the perfect scent.
Part of me sits outside in the snow. Waiting for my other daughter to come home. I'm waiting in the very spot where we said goodbye. It's going to be a long wait.
You have been on my mind continuously this month. You and your Georgina.
I cant quite say "I know" how the repetition feels, but I'm getting there. It always stays the same. I assume one day our lost ones will be so tucked away in our lives that they will only be for us to see.
I have so much love for your girl. No matter the distance, or the "real life" knowing of... I still love her the way any person can love another.
I am remembering your girl. You are in my heart as this month comes to an end.
Thinking of you, of Georgina, praying the day is gentle, which seems stupid now that I type it, as I know these days are not gentle. I don't know what to pray or to say, for any of us. I know no words make it any better. I am sorry.
I just felt compelled to come back, after a very long sojourn away, to write Georgina's name here - to let you know that I still think of you and her. I wish it could have been otherwise ... I could have written that every day of the past 5 years. I wish it could have been otherwise.
Still. Always. We all remember her with you, and Georgina is missed.
The more things change, the more they remain the same - I don't remember who said it, but it's true. Our lives go on and things change, but our missing them is a constant.
Catherine, I just wanted you to know I think of you often. I haven't found the right words, though I have tried to write to you. I lit a candle for your sweet Georgina. Saying her name and missing her here across the world. Holding you both in my heart. And holding hope for that new baby girl. xoxox, ~J (Clementine's Mom)
Still remembering and honoring your girls and your heart
ReplyDeleteYou have been on my mind continuously this month. You and your Georgina.
ReplyDeleteI cant quite say "I know" how the repetition feels, but I'm getting there. It always stays the same. I assume one day our lost ones will be so tucked away in our lives that they will only be for us to see.
I have so much love for your girl. No matter the distance, or the "real life" knowing of... I still love her the way any person can love another.
I am remembering your girl. You are in my heart as this month comes to an end.
Sending my love
Yes it is, dear Catherine, yes it is. Thinking of you and Georgina.
ReplyDeleteI don't think my named showed on the previous comment. Big Hugs,
ReplyDeleteChristine
Thinking of you, of Georgina, praying the day is gentle, which seems stupid now that I type it, as I know these days are not gentle. I don't know what to pray or to say, for any of us. I know no words make it any better. I am sorry.
ReplyDeleteRemembering Georgina xoxo
ReplyDeleteI just felt compelled to come back, after a very long sojourn away, to write Georgina's name here - to let you know that I still think of you and her. I wish it could have been otherwise ... I could have written that every day of the past 5 years. I wish it could have been otherwise.
ReplyDeleteyes, still.
ReplyDeleteExactly, Jill -
ReplyDelete"I wish it could have been otherwise...I could have written that every day of the past 5 years. I wish it could have been otherwise."
Yes, yes, yes, and yes.
xoxo Georgina xoxo
xoxo Catherine xoxo
CiM
Still. Always. We all remember her with you, and Georgina is missed.
ReplyDeleteThe more things change, the more they remain the same - I don't remember who said it, but it's true. Our lives go on and things change, but our missing them is a constant.
Catherine,
ReplyDeleteI just wanted you to know I think of you often. I haven't found the right words, though I have tried to write to you. I lit a candle for your sweet Georgina. Saying her name and missing her here across the world. Holding you both in my heart. And holding hope for that new baby girl.
xoxox,
~J (Clementine's Mom)
Hello Catherine, sending belated thoughts for you and for Georgina for the 28th. xxh
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